2016年12月26日 星期一

"Vanity of Vanities! All is Vanity!" 虛空的虛空,凡事都是虛空


1. Everything is F*&ked 所有的事情都一團亂

Can't find my keys and it's raining outside.  Forgot to set my alarm and I'm running late.  Ten minutes to go.  Nine.  Eight.  下雨天找不到鑰匙.  晚上睡覺前忘記設鬧鐘,   只剩下十分鐘了!  九分鐘......  八分鐘......

And I'm looking in the mirror thinking about how many more gray hairs I have, and how I'm not getting any younger.  I'm thinking that life after this point will be full of MORE days in which I'm late for work, MORE days of riding to work in the rain, and MORE days full of classes which are full of kids who are going mental. 看著鏡中的自己, 想著自己到底有多少白頭髮, 我已不再年輕.  以後我的人生還會有許多上班遲到的日子,也會有許多下雨天騎單車上班的日子, 也會有很多是上課時小朋友調皮搗蛋的日子.

On my way downstairs, I hear some lady complaining that she lost her job.  And the security guard is complaining about other people he knows, who are also losing their jobs.  And on TV (behind the security guard), the news is reporting on the economy, and I see a line on a graph that's pointing down, down, down.  我下樓的時候聽到一位小姐說她被開除了.  管理員也說他有很多朋友也失去工作.  在管理員後面的電視正播著經濟新聞, 我看到新聞圖表上的那條線的箭頭往下走
! 往下! 再往下!

I bicycle to work in the rain, and I'm thinking about all the stupid things that world leaders have been saying and doing, and about how the oceans are full of plastic, and about how the world is growing hotter every day.  I'm worried about my job.  I'm worried about my family.  And I'm worried about my money.  我下雨天騎單車上班, 路上想著世界上的領導者們最近說的愚蠢的話, 也想著海洋中充滿了塑膠, 和每一天我們的世界都在變暖的事.  我也擔心我的工作,  擔心我的家庭和我的錢.

It's Monday, it's cold, and it's dark.  Life is full of danger and uncertainty, and everything is getting worse.  今天是一個很冷很黑暗的禮拜一.  人生充滿著危險與不確定性.  所有的事越來越糟糕.


2. It's Getting Better All the Time 人越來越美好

Slept well last night and woke up before the alarm.  Plenty of time to make coffee and watch a football game before work.  昨天晚上睡得很好, 在鬧鐘還沒出聲前就已經起床了.  還有空在上班前泡咖啡和看美式足球.

And I'm looking in the mirror thinking that I don't look too bad for my age, and that I have many good years ahead of me.  I'm thinking that life after this point will be full of MORE days on which I see the sun come up behind the mountains, MORE days on which I talk with friends, and MORE days in which I eat good food, and visit new places.  看著鏡子裡的自己覺得我看起來還很年輕, 我的未來充滿著美好.  我的人生將來會充滿著看太陽從山的那一邊升起的日子, 還有跟朋友聊天的日子, 和充滿吃好料理和拜訪新地方的時間.

On my way downstairs, the guy from the fifth floor enters the elevator.  He talks about what he'll do on Chinese New Year, and he asks me about my plans.  He shows me pictures of his hometown, and the pictures are full of laughing, smiling people.  "My son just got a new job," he says, and things are looking up, up, up.  我下樓的時候, 有個住五樓的先生進來電梯.  他跟我說過年時他要做的事情, 也問我有什麼計畫.  他給我看他家鄉的照片.  照片裡很多人笑得很開心.  他跟我說他兒子有了新的工作, 之後所有的事情都會越來越好.

I bicycle to work in the sunshine, and I'm thinking that Taiwan is a good place to live.  I'm thinking that it will be a good day, and I'm thinking that after work I can have dinner with my wife and daughters.  I'm happy about my job.  I'm happy about my family.  And I'm happy about the money that I make.  我在陽光下騎單車上班, 我也想著台灣是個居住的好地方,  今天會是很棒的一天, 下班後我可以跟太太還有女兒一起吃晚餐.  我對工作很滿意,  我對家庭很滿意,  我也對我賺的錢很滿意.

It's Friday, it's warm, and it's bright.  Life is full of pleasant surprises, and everything is getting better... all the time.  這是一個溫暖, 又光亮的禮拜五.  人生充滿了驚喜.  所有的事在每個時間都會越來越好.


3. Can't Win, Don't Try?日子還是要過

Can't find my keys, but at least it's sunny outside.  Forgot to set my alarm, but there's still time to make coffee, and still time to watch the last few minutes of a football game.  找不到鑰匙!  還好外面天氣晴朗.  忘記定鬧鐘! 還好仍有空泡咖啡跟看最後幾分鐘的美式足球賽.

I'm looking in the mirror, and thinking that I look like I always do.  Work will be work, and that's fine.  Just another day.  我看著鏡子, 覺得自己看起來都差不多,  工作還是工作,  沒關係, 只是又是另外一天.

I don't see anyone on my way downstairs.  我下樓的時候沒有看到其他人.

I'm bicycling to work in the sunshine, and yes, I'm worried about things I've read on the news, but I realize there's little I can do about any of it anyway. 我在陽光下騎單車去上班, 擔心著最近看到的新聞, 了解自己在這些事上可以做的微乎其微.

It's Wednesday, it's chilly, but at least the sun is out.  Life is not bad, and a lot of it depends on how you choose to see it.  今天星期三, 很冷, 但至少出太陽.  人生不錯.  好的, 壞的, 都跟自己的看法有關.

Or at least that's what I try to tell myself...  至少這句話是我說給自己聽的...

...because it might all be a conspiracy, or we might be the victims of forces beyond our control.  Or, as the Buddha said, it might all be an illusion.  ...因為可能世界充滿了陰謀, 人類可能是未知力量的受害者, 也或許是像佛陀所說的這個世界是個幻象...

At any rate, why worry?  不管怎樣, 有什麼好緊張的?

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